I'm Not Sure How I Should Feel...

About two years ago a friend gave me a huge bag of fabric as she was moving away to Liverpool and couldn't take it with her. I had a lot of things going on at the time so didn't go through the stash properly till I was about to move house last year and at the bottom of the bag was something I really wasn't expecting... it was the partially made nursery wall hanging that my friend had been making while she was pregnant! It was mostly due to this project that the two of us really got talking at work (and we soon became good friends) she would ask me for the odd sewing tip and I gave her leftover fabric to use but unfortunately a couple of months later she had a miscarriage. I'm assuming (understandably) that the project was tidied away and forgotten...until the day I found it! Anyone who knows me can tell you that I am not the most emotional of women but when I found this item I have to admit I cried (a lot) and to this day I still haven't used any of the fabric that was in that bag.

A few months back I inherited another lot of fabric from another friend from work when sadly her aunt passed away. She knew that I liked sewing so I was an ideal candidate to take some off her hands, when I went through the bag I couldn't help but notice that some of the fabric had labels pinned to them and I had that horrible feeling once again. It's just so sad, this woman had so many plans for this fabric and now she never would get a chance to use them. I've had this fabric for a while and again I have not used a single thing.

I've been thinking about this for a while and I guess my main problem is that I'm not sure how I should feel about this fabric (sounds strange, I know) and the sad circumstances in which it came to be in my possession. Perhaps I even feel a little unworthy (does that make sense?) because I'm not the greatest crafter and I'm really still learning the ropes. My biggest worry is that I'll ruin the fabric by making something rubbish that'll end up being thrown away! So I've been telling myself that I'm just saving it for the right project and when that idea presents itself I will make something wonderful in tribute but I don't know if that will ever happen. I guess it just goes to show that you never can tell what's going to happen in the future and we should all try make the most of each day. (That goes double for me!!!)

Sorry that this post was a little miserable but it's just been weighing on my mind and just had to get it off my chest.

Happy Crafting. xx